Srila Govinda Maharaj began with Das Goswami's prayer to Swarup Damodar Goswami and continued going deeper and deeper into the conception and gift of Srila Sridhar Maharaj. What has our guru given us? He has given us everything, starting with the divine name of Sri Krishna, which takes us ultimately to the service of Sri Sri Radha Madhava. Then there is the negative side as expressed by Srila Das Goswami. This is extreme expression of the devotional mood. If I will not get the mercy of Sri Radha (personified by Srila Guru Maharaj), then I have no position anywhere. Even Braja Dham and Sri Krishna himself will not be for me if I am without her mercy. Srila Kaviraj Goswami has also expressed the negativity of his heart, but he has to confess that by the grace of Sri Nityananda Prabhu, he has received everything.
The opulence of the Sri Chaitanya Saraswat Math was so vast, but really it was all contained in one place, that was the personality of Srila Sridhar Maharaj. He embodied all the wealth of the Math, which was the treasure of the Rupanuga Sampradaya. All of the exalted godbrothers of Srila Sridhar Maharaj came to visit him and extract some of that divine wealth. They were all great Vaishnavas themselves and all vastly learned in the Vaishnava scriptures, but they came to Srila Sridhar Maharaj because he was the rudder of the Rupanuga Sampradaya and this was given to him by Srila Saraswati Thakur when he asked Srila Sridhar Maharaj to sing Sri Rupa Manjari Pada just before his departure from this world. All present saw it as a divine power transmission.
Srila Guru Maharaj saw some energy in me and he utilized that energy to spread the glories of Sriman Mahaprabhu and the mercy of Sri Nityananda Prabhu and their parshad devotees all over the world. When I joined the Math, I had some culture from my birth, but that was sahajiya vaishnava and the followers of Srila Saraswati Thakur were dead set against the conception of sahajiyaism. Just as a music instructor will charge double for students with previous musical experience, Srila Guru Maharaj asked me to forget everything of my previous experience and I tried heart and soul to do that.
Gradually, the glories of the Sri Chaitanya Saraswat Math have spread all over the world. In Russia, America, South America, Europe, Africa, Australia and very amazingly, by one man, Sripad Yudhamanyu Prabhu, our Mission is now established in China. A special place for Srila Guru Maharaj was London because Saraswati Thakur was thinking about sending Srila Guru Maharaj there, but he could not go at that time. Finally, the people of London came to him and the London Math was considered by Srila Guru Maharaj to be his Math.
We have come far from the days of "der paisa muri" (a penny's worth of puffed rice) but the conception and the source of everything has always been Srila Guru Maharaj. The Western devotees came and were eager for the conception of Srila Guru Maharaj. Sripad Bhakti Sudhir Goswami Maharaj collected so much of Srila Guru Maharaj's divine instructions and turned them into beautiful books. First was Search for Sri Krishna, then came Sri Guru and His Grace, then Golden Volcano of Divine Love, Loving Search for The Lost Servant and Subjective Evolution of Consciousness. Srila Guru Maharaj's deepest realizations were recorded. When I heard Srila Guru Maharaj explaining the Gayatri mantram to the Western devotees, I asked him, "Why are you explaining this to them?" He replied, "If I do not give this, who in this world will give it." Then I was extremely happy to see that the treasure of Srila Guru Maharaj was being stored and distributed.
When Sripad Yajavar Maharaj was sent by Saraswati Thakur to manage the Math at Kasi, he wrote a letter to Saraswati Thakur and requested him, "If you will please send Sripad Sridhar Maharaj to this Math, then your conception will be firmly and perfectecly established. This city is filled with Mayavadis and various other persons with conceptions opposed to the bhakti-marg, but no erroneous conception will be established in the presence of Sripad Sridhar Maharaj."
Srila Bhaktivinode Thakur eloquently expressed:
"He reasons ill who tells that Vaishnavas die
When thou art living still in sound!
The Vaishnavas die to live, and living try
To spread the holy name around!"